Cancer Sun Self Care
The Sun moved into Cancer Sunday and started Summer in Northern Earth. Summer is not my favorite season, I get horrible allergies and the heat zaps all my energy. However, I do adore Cancer Season. The start of summer can be lovely with the emphasis on getting cozy with friends and family, home improvements, and garden tending. There is a hominess in the air, finding a place or person that feels like home, so go ahead, cuddle in. Our intuition heightens and even if we are not consciously aware, we become more intuitive. Mercury moves direct today so this awareness becomes like an antenna and we just KNOW.
Back in March, when I scheduled my surgery for this week, I paid no attention to Cancer season, but rather made sure we were past the eclipses, Mercury direct, and not on a full moon. I checked my natal chart and the moon will be in my 6th house of everyday routine/tasks and health. A good day for a surgery, which is tomorrow Wednesday 6/23. Realizing this past weekend that it is indeed Cancer season solidified my decision even more. Cancer season is about self care and self worth. It is the archetype of the mother, the nurturer, the feminine side of life. I made two soups, celery juice, cookies, and bought a ton of fruits. I purchased a heart chakra “healing” candle and flowery oils to diffuse. The couch and bed are set up for reading good books and binge watching Netflix while the kids are at school.
If anything, scheduling a surgery is like a forced vacation from my everyday busy life.
The surgery is elective and is called a laparoscopic bilateral salpingectomy, in layman’s terms it means I am getting my fallopian tubes removed. Why would I do this? For one, it is permanent birth control. When I first saw my doctor to talk about it, we discussed the varying types of birth control and she was trying to convince me not to get my tubes removed. I have been on the pill since I was 20, that is 22 years and I am ready not to use hormonal contraceptives anymore. Remembering that pill every morning for 22 years has caused me more stress that I can relay. Of course I was off of it to get pregnant, but I am so ready to be done.
She tried to get me to try an IUD. I have had so many girlfriends have issues with IUDs; they fall out, they cause infections, and two of them got pregnant! No way. She tried to convince me to wear a patch, um no thanks, I can’t stand anything attached to me like a bandaid. Last but not least, I got the lecture of “it would be easier if your husband just got a vasectomy”.
Would it though? Why can’t doctors just trust women and what we ask for?
I went into a lecture of why this is MY choice and MY body and why does it have to be about my husband?! Putting my health care and baby making decisions into the hands of my husband is an OLD PARADIGM WAY OF THINKING!!!
So she relented and scheduled the damn surgery. She also then mentioned it is great for gynecological cancer prevention. Well there ya go, get me scheduled.
Birth control pills have always worked for me, but as I age I noticed my hormones are changing and my body is changing. Hello peri-menopause. The pills have been making me depressed for many years, plus my libido goes down. I got off of them in November 2020 and it was like a weight was lifted off my body and my mind! I was so much more lighter in mood, happier, and content. But, I also do not want to worry about babies. Worrying about getting pregnant is the number one sex-life destroyer for me. I am ready to be free. The technology is here, it is the modern day world and I am an adult woman making an adult decision for myself. So doctors, if you are reading this, trust that a woman can make her own damn decision about her body.
Self care here I come. I took off most of July from teaching yoga, to recover, but also to have some much needed down time and be with family. I am so excited that I scheduled this during Cancer season, it’s like a big hug from Grandma, saying “sit down sweety, eat this, time to rest.” I’ll be documenting some of the journey on my Instagram @sirenanow if you would like to follow along. What a trip it has been for prepping and getting ready!
In-joy and love,
Sirena
